today was my 19th birthday. as my another birthdays in the last year, it's not totally special. you know, everybody who knows or unknows me, my parents, sisters, friends, they were greeting to me a happy birthday and wishing me all the best! it sounds pretty weird for me, however. i mean how could people who usually uncare about me, leave me alone on the loneliness, suddenly come and greet to me a happy birthday, then they're about to go away.
okay, just forget about that. however i feel so thankful to Allah SWT who give me my 19. i remember when i was 18, He gave me much of precious lessons. He taught me how to be a whole-kindheartedness person, how to be always think possitive, think mature, and always feel thankful. you know it never crossed on my mind that i start to pray 5 times a day, wearing hijab, and do all the sunnah. and the thing i am worried about is just how it would be if someday i die and then God dumped me to the hell?! naudzubillah min dzalik!
i don't care how unspecial my birthday was. i don't really care if people ignored me or else. just the one important thing i should have in my life: GOD. and walking only on His way.
ah by the way i can't live through without any plans hehe :) i mean i've already make some plans for my future life. although these just for short-period of time, hopefully it'll works and make my day brighter than before hehe :D
one of my plans is get cumloud IPK on my first semester in college. i don't know why did people looks like underestimate me when i told them about this. are they unsure about my ability? are they unsure about my big dream? whatever! i just need time to work and then show them what i've got because of my hard-work.
well, the last plan i've created is... i'm going to forget all about Farizi. seriously! you can call me a big mouth or whatever because it's not for the first time i planed about that. but i'm mature now. 19 is not young enough to keep my first love still alive in my heart. moreover he doesn't even like me. so i'm going to find out someone new, make at least a guy crazy for me haha :D and he'll realize i'm moving on.
by the way ask me if i'm going to send my wedding invitation card to Farizi? umh.. i think no. my wedding is my future., and i won't let my past comes and break everything i've planed :)
"...always love someone who always be thankful when they have you, not someone who finally realize how precious you are when you've gone... :)"
