May, 23th 2012
well, i came from Ca Lina's house just now. she asked me for keeping Nayla while she was taking Belly Dance class. it doesn't even matter for me. Nayla was so calm and she spent her time to watch Harry Potter movie while i was checking my facebook timeline.
when she finished her movie, she showed me her mother's old album photograph. i was so surprised when i found my picture with Nada and Lusi. i didn't even remember when those picture being taken. i re-took those photo then uploaded it to twitter and of course mention to Nada and Lusi, wishing they're would be surprised too as i was.
but what i've got? i know Lusi never log into her twitter account so she must not say anything. i just wish Nada would be like "OMG i don't even remember when that picture being taken" or " wow we look so young." in fact i should bury my thought so deep because she just say, " OMG delete those picture for me please. i didn't even wear hijab on those pict" without saying at least "where did you find that?" what the heck! she even made her photo with his boyfriend and of course wearing hijab as her twitter profil picture!
what about my feelings? so broken! you know i do miss them badly, mainly her. i just hope she would be reminded how close we used to be. but right now, i think it's just me who losing her, not her.
well, i'm so dissapointed. i know i don't wanna be a egoist person toward her. but i should have known that signs.. when we met a month ago, just me who look excited. even i don't want to let her go back to her house because i was so missing her. but right now i think we were different enough to stay close. i mean she was on Bandung now, colleger, having alot of new friends, especially having boyfriend., she has alot of topics to talk about with everyone but me. and me? what about me? i'm just freshman, just having old friends, loving and still hoping my first love, there's no special about me to talk to her.
well... i remember how close we were. me, Nada, and Ika. she said that Ika has found her own way and she wasn't same anymore like we used to be. and then Nada herself. my childhood friends were gone. no more Three Charles Angels, a stupid name of our gank. i should have known that we're different, we have found our own way.
by the way i'll upload our picture later. i've delete it already.
