attention: sekarang kami udah jadiaaannn... :)

setelah beberapa saat ribut, saling duga menduga, missunderstanding, dan gangguan koneksi yang parah banget, akhirnya gue dan Anas pun resmi jadian.

tertanggal, 02 Mei 2010. 07.12 PM.

tapi kok, gue ga ngerasa amat sangat senang yah?

mungkin karena tadi, sebelum kita jadian, gue nungguin dia lammmaaa... banget. terus tiba-tiba dia muncul. gue tanya apa dia udah liat foto yang gue tag? dia jawab udah. terus gue tanya pendapatnya. dia jawab agak sedikit gelap. yahh... pokoknya ngobrol yang biasa banget deh! ga seromantis kemarin-kemarin. apalagi tiba-tiba dia offline, terus online bentar, terus offline lagi. bikin gue jadi naik pitam! message gue ga dibales. gue ngerasa kok kesannya gue maksa banget yah? kan ceritanya disini dia yang suka ama gue, tapi kenapa gue yang ngejer-ngejer dia?

akhirnya gue baru tahu kenapa dia offline-online-offline-online. tanpa gue tanya dia bilang kalo jaringan internetnya lagi payah. gue juga ngerasa sih laptop gue jadi lola banget padahal cuma buat bales message'nya risha lamanya kaya orang lagi naik haji. terus setelah dirasa internetnya udah mulai normal lagi, gue dan dia pun mulai bicara serius:

gue: how about our relationship? i need your certainty.
dia: what can i say dear?
gue: I asked, are we a lovers? This sounds really stupid. but i don't know why these days I keep thinking about you.
dia: am i attractive ??
gue: i guess. are you interesting in me?
dia: yup.
gue: what's your reason?
dia: i love you <3
gue: i don't love you too <3 i have a request for you...
dia:  what?

gue: if you really loved me, I want you can be faithfully to me. because I wanted something that seriously. would you?

dia: yup. yeah.!!

gue: love you anas :)

anas: me too...

ga tau kenapa, di kalimat terakhir gue agak setengah hati ngucapinnya.

hhh.... mungkin dia bener-bener bukan jawaban atas sabarnya gue.

jadi... let it flow aja deh. kalo gue sampe nangis karena dia, mungkin gue nangis karena gue ngerasa dia tipu.

atau karena gue bener-bener jatuh cinta ama dia?

enatahlah....

NB: "dear anas,, we run this relationship first. if you are the answer to my patience, God will make a lasting and my heart will also complete for you. This is only a matter of time .. and communication...."

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